So, 2017 was a pretty crappy year for me. Even though things
picked up and started to get better I spent the year letting my anxiety get the
better of me and rule my life. I’ve spent hours tossing and turning running
things over in my mind that I didn’t need to be thinking about. I realized I’d
started to live my life ruled by other people.
I was letting people tell me who to speak to, what to do,
who to be friends with. And I was closing myself off to friendships and people
that I shouldn’t have done. So, I removed myself from the situation. I cut
myself off from the people and relationships that were causing my anxiety to
flare and I moved to Bournemouth to be with my love and I’ve found that since I
moved here, although the anxiety has been there, not being around those
relationships has helped. Of course, my anxiety is triggered by other things
but those are things within my control. Things I can try and not let worry me
until I have a panic attack or stop me sleeping.
I’ve decided 2018 is going to be a good year for me. I have
good people around me friends and family I can depend on. I’m getting married
in March and I’m not going to let my anxiety get in my way of the biggest and
happiest day of my life. So, I’ve set
some resolutions for 2018 that I’m going to try and keep. I have a pretty poor
track record with these. My 2018 resolution is self-care.
- I’m going to try and look after myself better.
- I’m going to try and eat better and exercise and not get annoyed if I have an off day.
- I’m going to try regular meditation and yoga to help me relax.
- I’m going to try and not live my life through Facebook. I’m going to try and not spend so much time scrolling through my news feed.
- I’m going to try and read more – both fiction and non-fiction.
- I’m going to try and be a nicer person. A better sister, daughter and friend. And hopefully, after Easter, a good wife.
- I’m going to try and remember to use this blog as my journal. Use it to write about things I’m happy about. Things I’m worrying about. Good things. Bad things and everything in between.
Happy New Year
Kate x
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